Alyxx Thorne

Usually. My new years resolution last year was to change my lifestyle and lose weight and I feel I have managed that. Dunno what next year's resolution will be.

What's your favourite music genre?

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"Dashing through the snow"

Merry Christmas and shit.

Fallout 4 ^_^

Me as well.

 

I really hope resources renew at lootable places else I fear there may not be enough supplies for my Sanctuary plans.

They do. Give it some time and they should respawn.

Bite mark's too big. We also have pretty mean garden spiders up here. Not poisonous but they seem to like to bite things. Leaves a pretty noticeable welt for a bit but never scars.

 

I've been finding a lot of spider carcasses in my room too. Not sure where they're coming from because there's really little places for them to hide in here.

Ah okay, could definitely be spiders then.

That almost looks like what one of my gfx cards did when it started to die. Games would get artifacting like that. Have you tried other games to see if you get anything similar?

 

Edit: I swear my room is filled with spiders trained in the art of stealth because I keep getting bites on my arm and I never notice them until I unconsciously make contact with the bite and feel the sore spot.

Doesn't have to be spiders. Spiders generally avoid biting unless threatened. Could be smaller bugs.

My boyfriend is clingy as FUCK.

Can I please be allowed to spend just a few hours on my own? Or is that selfish? I mean, he goes to sleep and I get some time alone when he's asleep. But then I wake up and it's like... if I don't message him the moment I wake up, I'm suddenly the worst person ever and I should feel ashamed of myself. He uses his emotions to twist mine and it's starting to royally piss me off. He knows that I'll be nice when he's sad, because he knows I hate it when he's sad. I'm sure he's not purposely abusing this, but he keeps fucking doing it. He's so gosh damn sensitive, and I have no idea what to do with him most of the time when he's upset. I swear, any little thing sets him off into a sad soppy state. Just stooooop... pleeeaaasee... not everything is going to go your fucking way, stop getting upset over the littlest of things. Holy crap. It's starting to wear me down, really.

Like, really, I want to be off a Skype call for two hours, but nooo... can't have that. He says; "No call... so... you don't want me anymore? You don't love me?"

HOLY SHIT. STOP. I feel like shit when he says stuff like this. Like I'm not fucking good enough. I'm a terrible girlfriend. He keeps saying how much he wants to marry me, but with shit like this happening every day, I don't knoooowwww... *bangs head against the wall* Dammit. Relationships are fucking hard. Can I please be single for a little while? 'Be single for a week' coupon for $N0.P41N?

With me and my boyfriend we are both kinda clingy so it works out. I message him when I wake up and he messages me whenever he's able. I guess if you need some privacy once in a while that's understandable.

Making breakfast.

Fallout 4 ^_^

Playing Fallout 4 and just watched the Atop The 4th Wall movie with a friend.

I am 1000% looking for building mods - the vanilla building is very simple (dare I say "rushed and put ingame in the last minute"?) and it needs a lot of work, to be great!

Think I saw some mods for building actually.

Guild Wars 2

People love mods lol

Oh god I just started thinking of what the would would be like if it was made by Bethsda.... Not sure if awesome... or terrifying

OT: lately i've had some difficulty falling asleep, since just as i fall asleep, i am sometimes (lately rather often) hit by panic attack and sometimes even fear of death out of the blue (for clarification- no physical reason it should be so as i dont have any pains, lack of breath or such sort of thing, so it seems psychological issue). Most of the time it happens once, but sometimes it does happen 2-3 times or even more so that i have to sit up about hour to calm myself down because im just so nervous. Having lately lot of free time due to being unemployed, but still, unless i want to sleep almost until it goes dark, its far from fun. On plus side, i've had some great dreams recently, one even inspired my first appetempt to write a fanfiction of show i like.

Sounds like a psychological issue that could be a sign you are dealing with something. I'd suggest seeing a therapist about it if it gets too bad.

@Alyxx: Oh dear, I hope everything goes alright for you. Dizzyness can be a royal pain...

 

OT: Random headaches from hell? Check! I'd add more to this but I literally don't know why I have headaches.

Yeah, I'm quite relieved now that we know what's most likely causing it so I can get the right treatment for it. I expect to deal with it fairly soon.

I've had headaches from drinking coffee sometimes or from dehydration, those are often the most common causes in my experience. I also tend to get headaches if I haven't slept well.

Starting to wonder how reality ever made it out of beta with these kinds of bugs.

Well you know how life's all about the money.

Black Ops End of Round:

 

Guy: Nice Kneepads, faggot.

Blightmare: I like to make sure my legs are safe when I'm putting my foot up your ass.

Chilling out with some Fallout 4.

"Got yer nose!"

Steam:

Blood II: The Chosen + Expansion

Saints Row: Gat Out Of Hell

Keen Dreams

But it's still better than nothing.

I'd rather play old games on a console than use software rendering through VM thank you very much. Optimally I'd just build a 3DFX machine.

So good news. Saw my doctor today and he recommended I see a therapist since the problem seems to be my neck being all sore and shit. I'm seeing a therapist tomorrow. Hopefully I can get rid of the dizzyness soon.

Update: Saw the therapist this morning. Almost fainted though while he examined me. Turns out I have a muscle pressing against my artery which is causing my dizziness.

Now the question being: what should i change this to?

How about that badass santa avatar I made for you ages ago?