Jeb_CC

Dragons. Anyone who has a dragon avatar gets an instant +5 in my book. (At least... I think it's a dragon. Looks like it.)

vCXsRoyFRQE Super weird video but super catchy song.

On a call with a Guildie... and I suddenly gotta be quiet cause my mother is trying to concentrate on something and I'm apparently too loud. >.> So my Guildie takes the opportunity to start whispering erotic fan-fiction into my ear and I'm just mentally screaming inside. Oh gosh send help. XD

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Just thankful it only lasts 2 hours. :S Then it's a more dull pain after that. I think I need to drink more water and what not. OT: I dunno if this would count as physical but it's my thread so whatever, but I've had the privilege of being visually accompanied by weird and strange creatures, hallucinations or something. >.> I'm just trying to figure out why I'm hallucinating. Can't be from sleep deprivation cause I'm sleeping 10 hours per night these days (thank goodness for holidays). I don't think it'd be because of any eye straining because I had hallucinations out and about too. But it's not like I can do anything about it anyway so I might as well embrace them - even if they do scare the shit out of me when I first see them. Creepy crawlies or weird voided slugs curled on the side of my book. But I can't see my psychologist till next year because she has holidays, I'm away in Hobart, and then I got end of year exams, and then I'm moving house. So there's literally no time available for another appointment. Of course, I could always try to get another psychologist, but it took me just 2 months to find that one lady, because living on an island means you have little to zero opportunities to do stuff. :I Damn.

I mean, he WAS lacking in the bedroom department. I would have rather fucked a chair cause then at least chairs can't stare at you. That was fucking weird. He just did NOTHING. But I wasn't gonna tell him that. XD He's a bitch so I'll let it pass over to his next girlfriend. By the way, he has ANOTHER girlfriend, already. So, he's got the chick from America who he hooked up with only a few days after we broke up. And then he has a new girlfriend - where? In Australia! Which makes me feel really creeped out but also annoyed. Like, I've never felt like somebody else's disposable toy before till now. And the chick from America I remember she said; "I'm not into polyamorous stuff" but oho, look where they are now. Geez. Guys. Why did I put up with that relationship for 3 years? *grrooooan* I'm so fucking naive. Okay, I guess that was a vent. XD Vent over.

Whoever said exercise can help alleviate period pain can go fuck themself. Worst pain of my life, nothing is helping. Feels like my whole lower half is being sliced with a cheese grater. Exercise made it 10x worse. Can't breathe, can't think. God I wish I could faint on command. I want morphine. Or at least for someone to knock me out. I'm hurting myself to give myself new pain in attempts to distract myself from the cramps.

So my FB account got locked out because apparently someone from Melbourne was trying to log into it. I don't even know why anyone would want to do that. My life is boring, there's nothing to get out of me, especially from my Facebook. XD I'm not sure whether to feel honored or disgusted that someone would try to get into my account. Though I should thank them cause FB let me change my password on the site without having to use my email - since... I forgot the password to my old email, lol. And I've been meaning to change my FB password for literally years.

+1 Girls just gotta harden up and come to terms with the fact that almost every guy has porn/watched it/reads it. But most likely she was just using it as an excuse, hiding something else. Seems like they didn't even TRY to talk about it. Unfortunately I've done that sorta thing before... broke up with a guy for some small reason but truth was, there was a LOT of things I didn't like. Did it so he wouldn't get so upset over the fact that I didn't love him anymore, cause I feel like that's worse. And now I can just see it so easily when other girls do the same. But I dunno, I could be wrong. I'm no psychologist. XD Nice prediction skills though Helio, lol.

I live in a particularly empty part of the US. There's practically no traffic because no one lives here so to me it doesn't seem that much of a risk. I suppose if I lived in a densely populated city I might consider otherwise. I presume where Jeb lives doesn't have that much traffic either. I live on an island. A really small island. There is not much traffic here, and even on the mainland, you really don't need to use any sort of walkway to get across roads - just need to look both ways. Even in the city, usually traffic is so slow you can just walk between cars. I dunno. It's just normal here.

And then here in Australia it's completely normal to cross the road without a cross-walk. Just gotta look both ways lol.

Can't see the image Homestuck.

To be honest, I didn't really like this one. I like the concept of it, it's incredibly original. But it's so confusing and it feels like you need to put a lot of your time into it to understand it and enjoy it. I have respect towards anyone who can actually figure out what's going on. XD

Much better. Bahaha, wow. Perfect.

Depression? Check! Mood swings? Check! Pissed at everything? Check! Been drawing really dark shit to make myself feel better? Check! Mild Hallucinations? Check! Amount of work needing done: Too much. Level of Unluckiness: Off the charts! Next available psychology appointment: Probably not till next year. Conclusion: I'm fucked.

@Helio: Yeah, I don't get it. My father is a massive stubborn over-caring know-it-all and my mother is a passive aggressive guilt-tripping piece of crap. The two don't mix! It's like... They argue over the most stupid shit. Him: "What do you want to do about this?" Her: "I don't know. Don't care." Him: "You HAVE to care. This is important." Her: "Just do whatever you want." Him: "But I'm not doing anything until you tell me what you want." And then this turns into a huge argument that lasts for an hour and usually ends up with my mother walking out. Wtf guys. You're not 2 years old, stop having tantrums over nothing!! Fuck me. And I was looking forward to getting a cat and a puppy next year, to also help with my depression. But now... I can't do that if I'm living with my family again because last time we got a dog, my dad's violent tendencies kinda merged with the dog in a way and the dog was super vicious and we had to put him down for the safety of everyone around. And he hates cats. Soooo. Fuck. I want my happiness, holy fuck. Why does the world hate me?

@Helio: Thanks mate. It wasn't giving me errors, just wasn't doing what I intended it to do. I'm usually patient with my programming but if troubleshooting reaches the 40 minute mark then I start having issues lol @Rarity: That's generally what I do yeah, going through each step to figure out what's wrong and that helps a lot. I figured out what the problem was by the way! I was doing a super shitty job at testing it which is what my problem was, so I was looking for the wrong error... if that makes sense. Once I found out the ACTUAL problem, then it was easy to fix. Co-ordinates are bitches sometimes. Handy... but bitches. OT: And now for a very unrelated but worthy rant, for like... a year now, I've been super excited about moving back to Western Australia with my mother. But oho, life likes to slap me with spears cause now my mother wants to get back with her ex husband. Her abusive annoying controlling husband. I don't get it. She's left him 3 fucking times, and you'd think that'd be a sure sign that things aren't supposed to be this way. But no! She wants to get back with him, so who knows when the fuck I'll get off this cold miserable high-unemployment-rate & shitty-education island. And to make it worse, it seems that EVERYONE wants them to get back together. And my mother has been all excited like; "I got the people at Church to pray for us to get back together." and I'm just dying inside cause I know what I'll have to go back to... getting yelled and screamed at just for spilling milk, not even joking. I fucking hate this. I hate love. My parent's love brings me more misery and it fucking sucks. I'm the only one who can apparently see they don't belong and it's just ridiculous. I'm thinking I should move out as soon as I turn 18. Like, as soon as I get money from the government, I'm fucking out. I'll move to WA myself cause fuck my family. And with the money, I'll probably be able to pay rent and food, but nothing else until I get a job. Better than living with my family though, geez.

My favourite webcomic, a fantasy story kind of thing. http://twokinds.keenspot.com Don't judge it too harshly at first sight... You really need to get into it to understand a few things about it. Another fantasy story with very interesting designs... http://zoophobiacomic.com But unfortunately there hasn't been an update to this in ages. My own dodgy webcomic: http://jeb-cc.deviantart.com/gallery/52530116/The-Nova-Universe-Comic-Series It's in a pause at the moment because I'm trying to focus on end of school year work. But once I'm graduated, I want to devote all of my time to this. The art style is all over the place, and the quality isn't great. But I'm using the comic as a way to be better at drawing, and you can see the progress I've made and the style I've developed, even in just the few pages I have made. So, sorry for the shite quality. It's supposed to be shit. You can't get better unless you make mistakes!

I have a question for atheists... As far as my own views are concerned, it seems that the majority of people on the internet are atheists, which is actually kinda daunting at times. Do you guys feel the same way? Or do you feel as though there are more religious people?

Rhythm heaven. And to be honest I don't like it, mainly because I suck at it. You'd THINK that me being a piano player, with top marks and is good at playing an instrument, you would think that I'd be good at a rhythm game. But no! I suck! I don't know why! My rhythm is fine when playing an actual instrument and song, but as soon as it's for a game, I balls it up. My suspicion is that I'm so used to the slight delay of a piano, that I've just become so used to playing like that - where I need to hit the notes taking into consideration the amount of time before my fingers push the key all the way down, I think that's why I can't play these games... but I don't know. Basically makes these rhythm games annoying to play.

Ever get to the point where you've just... Given up on everything? Cause I have! I've come to terms with the fact that my grades won't be good enough to get into Uni. So... What's the point? Why am I still trying? I THOUGHT I was good enough. I thought; "I usually get A's and B's. This'll surely get me into Uni!" But NOPE. First of all... English Writing is such a bullshit class, it's unbelievable. Your marks are based on whether your teacher is strict or nice, and I landed a strict teacher. The whole marking structure it's based off of is so faulty and fucked, it's with every English class I've been in. One year, same curriculum and work, I got A's, straight A's at the start of the year. New teacher, got C's for the rest of the year and that ended up being my final grade. This year, it's just a strict teacher through the whole thing. And I thought; "Well at least I can probably learn something from this class!" But I have learnt NOTHING. Only that I'm a shit writer, too ambitious, and that everything is a cliche and I'll never be able to make something original ever. You see famous writers today, successful because of their plots, their ideas, the intricate way they write. But when I try that, it's called "horrible" and I have to rewrite everything. This class is based off of how much you can fit in without fitting in too hard instead of the creativity you possess and what stories you can tell. This is bullshit. This is why I'm failing. And now the depression has made it hard to do anything else. I was committed to getting an A for my graphics class but I've fallen so deeply behind, I wonder if I'll even get a C. I've had A throughout the whole year until now, where I've lost all my motivation after I realized how shit I am. The education system is a fucking joke, exams testing our memory, and essays testing how good you are at following society's stupid rules and structure. If you're even just a little bit off, well "fuck you and everything you love". You want to be good at school? Be a mindless fucking sheep. You want to go to Uni, get a life? Be a robot, and nothing else. Forget everything you love, forget your clean mental state and go wither in eternal failure and misery, you worthless useless shit.

Guild Wars 2 Though it does have waypoints to fast-travel, you can always just... not. XD

Nyq8OfZZxCo Latest composition, recorded a little differently this time. Ignore the bad sheet music writing. Wasn't meant to be viewed this way. XD

Too cuuuuute <3