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    Last Game You Played

    in Gaming in general

    Posted

    Guild Wars 2.

    I joined a guild, the Blue Dragon Army, and I've met so many new people.

    I've been kinda binging my life away on this game lately but I don't even care. It's fun and these people are fun. Got Discord to join the guild call server - I haven't been on a voice call like this in aaaaages. But wow, it's so good. I've been having so much fun with this.

    Share your feelings!

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Thanks to life, I've suddenly become a lifeless, unemotional, unmoved piece of shit.

     

    I'm failing a class...

    I got turned away from a border and spent 50 hours away from home in unknown unfamiliar countries...

    I'm being investigated by police and have had multiple personal possessions of mine taken from me...

    I have 0 privacy now because of the above...

    My jaw has gotten to the point where now just eating in general hurts...

    And more recent news: My only pet, my bird, passed away for unknown reasons just this night.

     

    Thanks life. I love you too. Well... RIP sleep. Time to pull my first all-nighter. I know it's a bad idea since school starts back up in only a day, but what the hell, I'm already failing my class.

    Jeb_CC's (Dodgy) Music:

    in Soundtracks

    Posted

    Sorry for the late reply - just wanted to add something else to my post other than a simple 'thanks'. :D Thanks by the way. :P But yeah, I love piano music, and the Sims uses a lot of that. Or even instruments similar to that of a piano. I can't help but create piano songs - as a piano player. XD And the aim of the songs are just to be catchy I think. I mean, in the Sims you don't have much dialogue going on so it's nice to have something melodious in the background.

     

    But I have a question...

    I'm in the middle of creating a song at the moment but I'm unhappy with how it sounds on the soundfonts I have available to me. So I was wondering...

    Does anyone know a good site where I can get soundfonts from? Preferably free...

    And also, does anyone know where to find the soundfont for Windows? I notice some of my songs actually sound really decent on the default MIDI soundfont, but I have been unable to find where it's located. :S Thus I can't tell my program to use the default midi sounds. Or perhaps, do you know how to make LMMS use the default soundfont? :D

    Thank you!

    Religious Discussions Thread!

    in Serious Topic Discussion

    Posted

    I'm a Christian, but I'm not the type to go around 'converting' people. I think everyone has their own beliefs and must be respected. You can believe in the flat-earth theory for all I care. :P I'll still let you think whatever you like.

    I'm not hugely religious, I'm really an extremely casual Christian. I don't like going to Church, don't like worshiping or praying aloud. But you pick up a lot of kind motives from religion, and reading the Bible makes me feel quite relaxed. People say all the time that Science and Religion are completely opposite. But I beg to differ. You can sure as hell be a scientist and religious at the same time. Just researching and investigating the way the world works can strengthen your idea of there being a creator to all of it. My theory is that the big bang theory DID happen, but was caused by God, and kinda shaped around that. So, he kind of nudged certain events to finally create the beginning of man. :) Which is where the Bible starts off from. But that's just my idea. It combines what we know of today, and also the faith and beliefs of God, so win-win? :P

    Vent

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Then be a terrible person Jeb and own it. There's nothing wrong with giving assholes a taste of their own medicine. Fight back, if they can't love/respect you then make them fear you. Make it seem like you could snap at any moment and that they'll be on the receiving end. That's all they ever deserve and you make them regret every minute of it.

    But it's so hard... All I ever want is for people to be happy. They aren't asking for any trouble. They never did. But I made a mistake and it seems that no matter what I do, I'm not going to get what I want. Every time I try and get what I want, shit happens. I long to start over. New people, new scenery, to leave all my reputation behind. But I can't. In a few days, I'll be going to school and everyone is going to ask me what's happened. The least I can do now is to act like I'm new. Give myself a new hair style, or... Buy new clothes. If people are going to start taking everything away from me then fine. I'll find some other identity then.

    Vent

    in Free-For-All

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    I'm losing everything. My possessions, my money, my emotions, my mind, my trust in people, and trust from others. I don't know how to feel anymore. I want to start over... Wake up and be in another place in another time. But I can't... I don't know what I did to deserve all this... I must be a terrible person to have everything happen this way to me. But I've been trying so hard to be good. I don't understand.

    Post what you're doing right now

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Eating ice-cream and thinking. XD Cause that's what every female does apparently when they're upset.

     

    I need to stop falling in love with people who live on the other side of the friggin world. But the problem is, the one time I think I'm ready for a close normal relationship, I realize I'm going to be moving to the other side of the country at the end of the year anyway. *sigh* And then I'll have to make new friends and start over again. That wouldn't be such a bad thing if most relationships didn't start off from a former long friendship. :I Gosh dammit.

    Share your feelings!

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    Posted

    I'll still be able to type... even if you do that.

     

    But no, sweetie... there is no way how you can justify blaming yourself for any of that. So you just shouldn't.

     

    And in any case - we'll just do it again, properly. All that's happened is that we've lost some time.

     

    Regards

    Shhhhh, now you're saying too much! I'll friggin' tape your hands to your side! Oh gosh, they're gonna start asking questions... D:

    Share your feelings!

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Jeb, Jassy, darling - it's not your fault. Not in the least. And it definitely won't affect your family at all. It has no bearing on them whatsoever...

     

    It's my fault above everyone else and almost equally - your mother's. But no one sane can blame you for any of that. And if anyone tries - I'm going to speak to them... And I'm not going to be nice...

     

    Regards

     

    Shh shh shh!! Noo... please, it's not your fault. It's my fault more than yours - or anybody else's. I screwed up and you suffer for it. I feel like shit. I'm an idiot for letting it happen the way it did. There's nothing you can do to convince me any other way, so... it's settled. Shhhh... I'll tape your mouth shut, I swear I'll do it!

    Share your feelings!

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Bunch of replies:

     

    i havent been that angry to my 7 year old nephew in a long time...

    Today i had important job interview via phone and i said it to my sisters family (as they were visiting). Right in the middle of it, at part where i had to focus to answer questions, he runs in loud as heck and screams. I swear, never before i have wanted so hard to punch a 7 year old. I seriously hope it didnt mess job interview up..

    Oh geez. Hope the job thing goes fine for you. :( Kids will be kids, unfortunately. I'm sure it'll be fine though. The person who interviewed you is still human. :P I'm sure he/she will figure out none of it was of your planning.

     

    You know, I actually do have another thing I want to do, and that is to learn how to fix cars and such. My friend's dad said that he'd be happy to teach me as soon as he's on vacation.

    You should do that then! :D And have fun with it!

     

    I've been feeling just bitter, cold and sour towards everything lately. I've had a few instances this week where I've made women almost cry just by talking to them or what I perceive to be just talking to them if that makes sense. My confidence is effectively dead at this point and I'm not sure if I care about changing my attitude or not. I mean that's just how I am naturally. If I'm being nice then I probably fucking hate you and want to spend as little amount of time conversing with you as possible.

    Do you know why? And is it something you WANT to change? Sorry for my prying. XP You can ignore me.

     

    My own little addition to the thread:

     

    I've had a really rough week... but whilst driving down to Hobart, I had some weird as revelation. I must first digress: I have a bunch of adorable fictional characters I've created, and one of them is named Lyle. I play favourites. :P And he is my favourite. He's so lovable, sweet, kind, just a darlin. But I gave him this backstory... that when he was a teenager he accidentally burned his family's entire estate down. Wasn't his fault, but he completely blames himself for it. His family was extremely upset about it, so Lyle decided to run away and live on his own to avoid talking to his family, thinking he was responsible for it all. Well, I find the similarities between his backstory and my recent week kinda disturbing!

    • Both Lyle and I made a big huge mistake. People keep telling me it's not my fault, but I still keep thinking I'm the one to blame.
    • What happened affects not just us, but everyone around, especially our families.
    • What happened was unforeseeable.
    • The guilt is indescribable. I've felt nothing before that surmounts to the current guilt I have.
    • There's a huge hesitancy to talk to our own parents. I'm sure they'd be kind about it but I just do not want to talk to them about it at all.
    • Every time somebody reminds me about the little mistake I made, I want to go hide for a year in a dark forest. :I
    • We don't like talking about it!!

    The coincidental...ness of this is very... absurd - seeing as I planned out Lyle's entire backstory, emotions, family and actions way before this past week happened. So by logic, using this trend, my next week will follow what happened to Lyle. I kinda hope not. XD Lyle almost died. But in that moment he found out something cool about himself. So it's a win I guess...

    But the fact that I can relate to my own creation is kinda weird. But at least I feel less alone about it all. And I can use this to better develop his character, since I basically feel exactly the same way as he does. :I

     

    Sooo...

    Summary: Shit but very wtf about it.

    How's the Weather Today?

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    If a tree falls does it make a sound? Jeb says it did. :P

     

    :lol:

    Oh yeah. I was a few blocks down and I could still hear it. :P I guess that's what you get for deciding to live in a street meshed between two mini-forests. There was even a poke-stop over there but like... power lines and shit on the ground, yeah... I can wait. XD

    Share your feelings!

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Ive always wanted to join the Swedish military, its been my "dream" since like age 14 or so.

    Now I went to a shrink and I regret every second of it.

    I got diagnosed with some stuff:

    PTSD

    ADHD

    Anxiety attacks

    Im not getting into any military, am I?

     

    I feel empty and slightly depressed, Ive lost most of my motivation to go outside running and people keep telling me that Im quiet and distant.

    On the plus side, I finally moved away from home and got myself a job at a retirement home, so Im also slightly relieved and happy.

     

    Im in the weird middle of feelings.

     

    Aw man, that's gotta suck. :( I'm really sorry about that. But know, you're really not alone on this one. I wanted to be a pilot when I was younger, hehe. I absolutely planes, and I love flying, every single second of it, even when the weather is shit. :P Especially when the weather is shit actually. But alas, my vision is absolutely terrible - so I can't be a pilot. But I just... worked on my hobbies and thought of some other things to dream for. :D You're probably extremely mad and disappointed, it's a very undesirable feeling I'm sure. But the best thing to do about it is to look for other things. You'll find something new to strive for and you can be happy that you're still on the road to something. Not your original plan, of course, but at least you've got SOMETHING. It's better than sitting and doing nothing. If you do that, that emptiness isn't going to go away, I assure you. Good luck with it! ^-^

    Vent

    in Free-For-All

    Posted

    Oh, hey - no suicide pacts here, you two.

     

    I want my Jeb alive and well. I have other plans for her...

     

    Regards

     

    :P Mm. Like what?

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