Zaraki

Far Cry.

Evolution.

Seeds.

A personal depressive sort of vent on my current status.

To put it short: Could be better.

 

Really... I don't know how to feel right now... I'm trying to like... keep a hold of myself. But I can just sense it all cracking and breaking, and I'm just waiting to fall apart now. I'm holding up a thin shell that tells everyone everything is fine... but my heart aches so much.

I hate my parents and the crap they put me through. But I hate it when they fight. And I hate it when they do this shit. It's all mum's fault that Dad's leaving. Why did she have to act that way!? Why does she feel like she needs to pull all of this apart?

I don't even know much, but... ffuck. I was hoping mum's threats wasn't serious. But just then, Dad told me to come to him, and he stood at the front door with me. And he hugged me, and neither of us let go. We knew that something was going to happen. I knew it. We didn't say a word. I know why he hugged me for that long. And I know why he said to take care of mum. And I try to be strong about it. As he left, I said goodbye, but fighting back tears is hard... and you could just hear the crack in my voice as I said it. I have to... keep myself together. I can't let myself go. I can't. I need to not cry. I'm strong. I won't let that get me down. I have to keep myself together. I have things to do, people to be, deadlines to meet. I can't let anything like this get me down. I just... *sigh* God... please help me.

I'm really sorry,Jeb.I wish that there was something we could do for you to make you feel better.

DzWFWCH_lTE

Medal Of Honor:Allied Assault War Chest.

Veteran.

Someone is always procrastinating, watching funny modern Mario Bros videos, grabbing energy bullets.

Going to bed.

My pizza was born yesterday!

Battle.

Argument.

Mythical.

So Planets Are Crying Everywhere?

GHUKK

Heaven.

Okay,so I dreamed that I was back in school.THEN these random TF2 characters show up and the dream becomes a random Kitty0706-esque Gmod video.

I hate myself. What else can i say? i just fucking hate my life. To keep it short: I feel useless everywhere I go, I can't do anything right, i'm SO different among my peers, they could mistake me for a fucking autistic when they see me. Most of my so-called friends in college are snobs who only know my name when they need something from me. They look like they're enjoying life, while I'm trying make mine better. I'm trying not to let all my problems get into my head, BUT IT'S SO FUCKING HARD! If only saying every swear word can solve my problems, i'd be shouting them out to the top of my lungs by now.

 

I'm sorry if my rant/vent seems silly or melodramatic to some, things have been shit lately, especially with myself. I can't find anything good to say about myself anymore. Depression I guess, I don't know.

I feel exactly the same way ever since yesterday after an argument with my dad.

I ain't got anyone to talk to who could possibly understand me.

HELL.I'm MUCH clumsier today than usual.

AND our water supply has gone passive-aggressive.I can't even take a fucking shower in this heat.

Somebody.Get a gun and SHOOT me already.I DON'T CARE ABOUT MYSELF ANYMORE.

Yeah.My sanity is pretty much screwed at this point.

Spitter.

Camel.

Surrealism.

Feeling bored.

Ship.

Someone is not eating, watching funny Super Mario Bros videos, dodging energy pellets.

Tamriel.

Reptilian.