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Food is expensive in Australia. X3 You get 1 frozen pizza for about $6. It's just a known fact that food is way more cheaper in America. Lucky ducks. EDIT: Back from the dentist. Thank God, didn't get a tooth pulled out. Fillings though. Two. My whole upper lip area is numb as fuck. I can't tell if my mouth is closed or not. X3 When I was sitting down in the chair, having my teeth worked on, all I could think of was a video called; "The Dentist", which is a PayDay 2 trailer (NOT ADDICTED), and remembering Dallas refused the numbing needle thing. And I was like; "If Dallas can do it without painkillers, I can do it with it." I mean, I obviously know it's fiction, but little things like that kinda motivate me.

Heeey, nightmares ahoy. Fuck me. 16/03/2015 I'm in a street, a long straight street, standing outside a group of apartments where my school is staying for the week or so. I don't know our exact location, but it's in a sort of crowded city. Many people pass by, including one guy. Tall, has a beard, sort of scruff, between thin and thick. He looks at me and my friends sitting outside the apartments. "So what are you pretty ladies doing today?" He asks. Note, he seems like... 25 years old, me and my friends about 15-17. My friends are a little creeped out, I act like it didn't happen. "Nice day. What's your names?" It didn't really phase me at first, oh boy do I learn later on though. "Jasmine" I tell him, my friend tells him her name as well. He nods repeatedly and looks around. "Hm. Look at the time, I thought I had more. I'll see you later." He smiles and walks off. Not even a friendly looking smile. My friends and I shrug it off, watching him as he runs into the building across the street. Later, it becomes night time of course. We head inside, and I head into my private little dorm room. I look outside, and suddenly see... him. Now I don't know how, but my dream was practically TELLING me he was gonna come and rape me. I 100% knew he was going to. As he walked into the apartments, I quickly hid under my bed, hoping he'd be too much of an idiot. I hear him clearly from downstairs. "Hey, which room is Jasmine in? I'm her father." "Room upstairs, 310." I hear his footsteps as he walks up. I felt my heart beating inside my chest a million times a minute. I didn't know what to do. I was so scared and frightened as he walked into the room. Luckily... My nightmare ended there. Thank fucking God. Then another one started. Fuck. I can't explain where I was, so I'll explain surroundings. I was in a small hall, but I couldn't see the walls, it was so dark, wooden planks sticked out from the sides of it, from the ceiling and the sides. There were missing floorboards and the only thing I could see was four lights at the end of the hallway. I walk closer, carefully. Everything was purely in black and white. X3 Some friend of mine asked if I've ever had one of those, forgot who sorry, but this would be the first. I suddenly walk into a very very BIG open space, still in a building. It was a huge building. A huge cube. I still couldn't see the floors or ceiling though. The ground was gravel though, dirt and gravel, bugs crawling on the ground. I look back to the four lights. Two little girls, carrying two flashlights each, run across the gravelly hill, towards the big rickety house in the middle of the building. It's eerie. Quiet. I think I practically had no hearing sense at all in that nightmare. I carefully approached the big tower of a monstrosity. It looked just as menacing as the broken hallway I was in before. It's so quiet. But nothing is here to hurt me. It's as if... (Only realising this just now, outside of my dream) o.o I'm the monster. Fuck. I wasn't scared at all in my dream, but it was a nightmare. And seeing those girls run, away from me. I looked around, and I didn't find it any different. It was if this is where I lived. My domain. And as I walked into the tower, my dream ended. Erghhh... Sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes. Got school now. No time to check.

I don't want to be extremely picky, but there's bread, yoghurt, more fucking yoghurt (I hate yoghurt, unless it's chocolate), sandwiches. For dinners, I won't eat rice, and my mother is almost pure Asian so that doesn't really help. I won't eat spicy stuff, curry or whatever. I don't even eat tomatoes. @_@ I'm awful. Not like I can help it. I can't control my damn tastebuds. Also, God, if a plane came to deliver all manner of food, I'd be so happy. XD Also, according to my dentist, I have bad teeth. X3 I mean... I've honestly seen worse... But the dentist makes it out to be the WORST. I think... I've only heard one good thing come out of her mouth. And people ask me why I'm afraid of the dentist. And God, the sound of the scratching against my teeth is awful too. And oh boy, I'd like to talk to my parents, but they scare the shit out of me. I'm surprised Dad hasn't beaten me yet, with an aggressive attitude like that. Erghh... And I'm sorry Zaraki. People say I mumble a lot too. But I also tend to talk to myself a lot. So people ask me to repeat myself and I have to say; "It doesn't concern you" or "Doesn't matter" and they'll think I'm being rude. X3 I'm not insane. I swear.

Jacksepticeye has a decent comment section though. He's the only person I've found whose comment section is actually decent. X3 I think it's mainly because Jack himself seems to spread around the love in the comments section, and he has a filter on the comments section so that all the bad stuff is just immediately deleted. But as soon as I leave the safety of the good comment section, all hell breaks loose. XD Another vent. Oh boy: I'm so fucking hungry. I just managed to eat a big KFC box meal which had large sides to it. I ate it ALL. I am so impressed because I'm usually full halfway through eating it. Meanwhile, my parents still continue to not be able to buy me food. They either forget to buy me stuff, if they don't, they forget what I like or dislike, and if they do get food I like, they tell me off for eating it all. I just want ball up and cry. I literally have to spend every cent of my pay for food. None for savings. I won't have a future, but at fucking least I'll have some weight. Parents threaten me that if I don't gain weight, then they won't let me go to America next year. I have a dentist appointment, probably going to be them complaining some more and pulling out more teeth. I won't be able to eat for a few more days. Neither concentrate on my work. I'm so jealous of my boyfriend. He has it so perfect. A condition that makes him unable to leave the house (perfect by me), loving parents, caring doctors, food, money, amazing friends. I just don't know what to do anymore. Yesterday, I ate all the hot cross buns. They were the only thing that I liked. >_< Got growled at. And I have no more likable food in the house. Fuck me. I can only cry when I think of what Dad will do to me after my dentist appointment. I'm so fucking scared and hungry.

FNAF had potential to be AMAZING. I'm not saying it's bad though. It's a good game. It just had the potential to be something much more. And whilst people may argue with me (go ahead), I think the developer of the game was mainly in it for the money. I think it was TWO times where he was supposed to release the beta, but instead just released the full thing. He didn't wait for feedback or anything. He just saw it as; 'not buggy' and sent it off to the public. A game developer should work and work and work on their game till it makes up for its price. But, X3 that's my opinion. You guys aren't YouTube so you'll be more forgiving, thank you. But yeah. A majority of its fanbase is toxic. Not all! I do believe there are respectable fans, but a lot of the people I've seen are ADDICTED. Like, they make it their life and soul. Like, not even my love for PayDay right now. These people will go to the length of telling haters to go kill themselves. If somebody hates or dislikes a game, fair enough, that's their opinion. People defending the game are just as bad as the people who say they hate the game. It's an ongoing hate war.

Youtube is kinda ridiculous. X3 On a video about Five Nights at Freddy, some guy goes on about how there are people who hate the game just because it's popular and doesn't give it a fair go. To which I agree, but I also state that there are some people like me who dislike the game for actual qualities and characteristics that by opinion some people don't like. I basically say this; "Yeah, I dislike the game because it's sort of repetitive. In my opinion anyway." Suddenly! People having a go at me like; "Isn't every game repetitive?" To which I reply; "Not AS repetitive as FNAF. Games such as [example] and [example] are not as repetitive BECAUSE... ... etc." Another reply to me for no damn reason; "Who compares an Indie game to a game made by a full team?" I think they've completely forgotten that I've said; "IN MY OPINION" God. Fuck. People are so ridiculous sometimes. Just freaking read, and get off my back. All I did was comment. Why do people take that as a; "FIGHT ME" request?? I'm more or less entertained by the amount of people trying to pick off the flaws by me. I'm just sitting here, being as calm as I possibly can on the comment section whilst I have these annoying fudgers trying to make sense of my comment. X3 Deary me... *sighs*

Yeah, I noticed the numbers but I don't actually know how to change the numbers. Maybe I'm missing something. :S And yeah. XP Serpent thing whatever. Hehe.

Chains gives zero fucks. XD Wolf: "Come on, Chains. Dance!" "No."

Meanwhile, I seem to be the only one who actually does things before it's due. X3 I just handed in my assignment a week and a half early. Once, I completed an assignment BEFORE IT WAS EVEN ASSIGNED. Beat that, system.

I made this to represent my love for the piano. X3 Just a short sketch. I've taken a look at the Jazz program. It looks so damn old. XP But it's very useful in that it has every sound known to man apparently. XD I played around with it a little, I think I'll mainly be using it to browse the sounds though. Do you know how to split the tracks? The thing is, I have 4 tracks, but two of them are connected. So... Treble and bass for two tracks are connect, and the other two treble and bass are connected. And they both use the same sounds, even if you specify it to not. X3 Help, if you understand?

Eh. It doesn't give me issues. I really like it! Makes the experience easier for me. X3 I don't like playing games that are modded to make things harder. My games are usually always put on Easy cause I play games to ENJOY THEM. Not pressure myself into challenges and unwinnable circumstances.

Nice, Psychotic! Meanwhile, in Garry's Mod, I do some "art". I've just been staring at these pictures, laughing like a 10 year old giddy idiot. 1. For some reason, these models have freaking 'insta-sass'. They just naturally hunch over into a sass position. XD 2. I had a LOT of fun with this. As you can tell, Wolf is one of my favourite characters. 3. This is the best thing I've ever made, PayDay 2 related. Sorry for my poor Photoshopping skills. X3

Oh! :3 Well I love it. I love it as much as I love my weapon in Skyrim. It might not be the BEST. But I don't give a shit. X3 It's mine, and I love it, and that's why I use it. It's like Pokemon too. XD EDIT: Come on, look at how Bad.ASS this looks. My sniper rifle. <3

I always go for the specials with my sniper rifle. Using my assault rifle with more ammo for the basic enemies. X3 And good thing I'm a pretty good shot. And I don't use the M95. I use the Thanatos 50 .cal. :3 Beast of a rifle. My little baby.

It's not all that bad though. X3 I mean, we can always just get it one way or another. I have an American laptop, so I get American things. XD My L4D2 is the American uncensored version. > Mwahaha. Didn't even have to do any weird modding. Just had it uncensored. Booh yeah. Question: What's your favourite weapon? I honestly love Sniper Rifles. Especially the one I currently have. It deals 2000+ damage. <3 It's my wittle baby. *rocks sniper rifle in a cot* XD

As a musician, this represents a lot. X3 Even if it just looks like scribbles and black and white blotches.

Yep! And his odd pair of glasses. XP

And I have goggles too... Bet you didn't notice them either. XD I'm impressed. You managed to identify my squiggles!

It's your avatar! Silly. XP

http://steamcommunity.com/games/218620/announcements/detail/213132102936687543 So this happened. And apparently it's BANNED in Australia. XD Because apparently it's too damn violent. Well then! However, Good guy Overkill has made the content FREE for us Australians, as long as we can provide a form of ID over email. X3 It's awesome. Imma gonna get content for free. Thanks Overkill. Meanwhile, I'm addicted to this game so yeah. X3

Just fake sicked to my mum so I can stay home from school today. X3 Usually I don't do this. But today is photos day. I don't hate photos, it's just, I have to wear a very precise uniform. Which I don't have. And I'm not fucking have my mother spend what, $50 on the uniform for just one day. Fuuuck that.

This isn't a recent dream but kind of a scary dream I'd like to share. I won't go into full detail, even though I remember it all so clearly, the location, the voices, the people. I was basically found 'trespassing' sort of thing, on an overprotective father's lot. It was really a nightmare more than a dream, because gah. He picked me up and threw me outside and onto the lawn. The pain felt so god damn real, my legs were shaking and I struggled to get up. He paced quickly towards me, pushing me down with his foot before I can even get a chance to prop myself up on one foot. He yells and screams, picking up a sharp javelin from the nearby shed. He pressed the point, right up against my back. I could feel it pressing into my skin as he pushed it further into my flesh. I screamed in agony and cried out for help. The javelin is thrusted straight through me. I wake up, I swear I was screaming when I did. Fast paced breath and shaking limbs. But worst of all, I could still feel the pain in my back where he had impaled me. It was so frightening. I couldn't shake off this feeling that something was poking into my backside. It wasn't the clothes, nor the bed. For at least an hour I had this feeling that something was pushing into my flesh. It was the worst. @_@

TROMBONES ARE NEVER RELEVANT DAMMIT.

You poor thing. Reminds me of my boyfriend's past sorta. He's had 3 ex's. X3 All of them treated him unfairly. One ex, simply broke up with him for no good reason. Another one who I despise the most, was in a long distance relationship with him, and the day that he had bought her flight tickets to go see him, she vanished. Took the tickets and left. Never talked to him again. The last one is recent by a year or so. Even though I've been with Seth for 2 years. Yeaaah... My boyfriend and I did naughty stuff. For a moment he was cheating on her, but for good reasons. He was simply plain and depressed because of her. Worst girlfriend you could possibly have. She did nothing, gave him nothing, didn't do anything for him. The only reason he was with her was because he felt sorry for her crap messed up life, and knew leaving her would make it worse. One day, my boyfriend met me. He goes on about how I was so damn irresistible. XP He accidentally fell in love with me. He knew it was wrong. But it just sorta happened. Fair enough, I'm freaking stunning. But anyway! XD He eventually told his girlfriend that he had fallen in love with me. She didn't really mind. I didn't expect her not to, she's a total uncaring prick who practically kept him for the money. There came the polyamory love. It was okay for a few months. I mean, I was happy as long as he was. That's love for ya. But then his girlfriend and I started to feud. We were always secretly despising each other, and after every bad thing, after 4 months I finally told my boyfriend to break up with her. He didn't. I wasn't mad. It'd be hard for me to break up with someone too. I gave it a rest for a few weeks. Then told him again. The relationship he had with her was freaking toxic. He was depressed because of her, and I hated it. I made them breakup. As a result, his now ex backfired and told his friend his DARKEST deepest secret. He was freaking furious. Understandably. But after we dealt with all the multiple revenge and backfiring, my boyfriend and I were finally... At peace together. 2 years and still going. And after all the experiences he's gone through, I don't have a reason to leave him broken hearted again. I love him so much. Binky, I'm sorry you're going through that. Love can be awful sometimes. But know that there IS someone perfect. ^_^ Don't worry. Sorry I can't really comfort you in the "past self" department. XP I'm the love doctor. *wink*